Change
I don’t like change. Well, usually. But now I’m so excited to be thrown into a new environment with new people and new experiences that I can barely stand waiting three more days to leave. The opportunity to go someplace where nobody knows who I am, who I was, or the experiences I’ve had that inevitably define both of those people is something I need now and I think will only change me for the better. I spent far too much time investing myself in a fruitless endeavor, and this is the final piece in rebuilding the person I should have become. After learning so much about myself, the things I want from life, and everything I deserve to give and get from the people I love I’m excited to go off and really live. Live for me. Copenhagen here I come.
Treading dangerous waters.
So excited a finally convinced someone to shoot this for me. A few more coming later :)
For probably the first time in my life I’m being forced to take a step back, look at my life, and fix all the broken spots I taught myself to ignore. I learn more about myself and pick up more of those pieces every day, and maybe I needed this… but I still fucking miss you. Every day.
I wish I didn’t miss so many things… Bloomington will be bittersweet. Good summer? I honestly don’t think so :/
Hehe.
Another Night
Fight red eyes and choke down tears,
For now replace the broken years,
And instead look at those things yet done
To carry through to soft red suns.
Swallow the hope, well crafted lie,
Let exaggerate and multiply,
The fabricated will that breaks
With every guarded moment faked.
Find the pillar, broad and tall,
The foundation at your final fall,
And walk away with faith in one,
Scars sewn in what you will become.
…I need to sleep more and think less.
My little sister just insisted she look up my name on Urban Dictionary. I like this ;)
Molly: a very beautiful girl, also thought of as perfect, very athletic, and fun to be around, she is smart, and is loved by many, she has low-self confidence, but doesn’t realize that people think very highly of her, she is amazing in every way, and has a bitch for a sister.
YES
